sing like you think no one's listening

la tortura

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 22:22:21 GMT

I guess I got my hopes up too high too fast. And maybe that was stupid, I mean I only met him once, but I talked to him all the time. I thought we got kinda close, ok really close, but guess that it comes down to…I only thought. I thought something could happen…we could be the cute couple…and everyone would be jealous…but I was just counting my chickens before they hatched…’cause in reality we weren’t anything. I thought there was…and maybe I was right…maybe there still is…but ugh.
Him: i wont have time to like chicks in like amonth
Him: so there is no point
Me: why do you say that?
Him: u try 5/6 APs
Me: :-(
Him: i remember my schedule wit only 3/6 Aps
Him: this is going to suck!
Me: i guess there isnt really a point then...
Him: for what?
Me: nevermind
Him: look... i cant be ur boyfriend
Him: i wanted to do a summer thing... but it just didnt work out
Him: and during the year... GAH!
Him: my schedule will suck
Him: ill only have time for bbyo basically
Me: i see
Me: idk what i was thinking...
Him: now fun... and hanging out every so often... i could do
Him: but not a full on boy friend
Sam says that I was being led on, and I guess I was…so now I just feel dumb. This is why I refuse to fall for guys anymore…’cause right when you think everything’s right, and that he’s right, and he’s different than every other guy that hurt you before…but what it all boils down to is every guy is the same and now a certain song by maroon 5 comes to mind…
And I don't trust you cause every time you're near your intentions are unclear. I spend every hour waitin for a phone call that I know will never come. I used to think you were the one. Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all...

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 20:00:07 GMT

so at the moment i feel ignored...and it's really pissing me off...
so i try calling a certain person who i haven't really talked to for a while and miss him a lot...and his phone is off i guess...and around 2 he picks up and says i woke him up...and then hangs up on me?? yeah not nice...and i've been trying to get back in touch and it keeps going to his voicemail after 3 rings...ok pissing me off...so then i call my best friend in the world to comfort me and she refuses to give me the time of day...and right now it feels like no1 cares...

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 05:42:30 GMT

ok so the question of the night is why do pretty people get away with EVERYTHING? they think that they can treat people like shit...but guess what they can cuz everyone lets them cuz they're beautiful! take tonight for instance...laleh and i called a certain person who's name starts with justin and ends with slater and he was like dude yeah ill hang out with you...and he calls and is like dude ill call you back...and look now its 1:39 and nope...not there...but we cant do anything about it...he's flipping gorgeous and face it...we're not...he has tons of hoe's throwing themselves at him and quite franklly we're just not up to par...so yeah...just once i wish i was one of those people who were RIDICULOUSLY good looking and got everything i wanted...including rides anywhere...booze...and really hot guys...yup there you have it...maybe i should get plastic surgery...NOT

that's it for tonight folks

♥
Gabi

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 01:08:25 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Gabi
Birthday:	June 13. 1990
Birthplace:	Atlanta
Current Location:	Atlanta
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5'2 and a half!
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Jewish-German and Russian
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Chacos!
Your Weakness:	really pretty guys with gorgeous eyes! ummm i dont know...im not really a weak person
Your Fears:	Rejection, Failure, Growing up and being unsuccesful and Lonely
Your Perfect Pizza:	No Sauce (aka white pizza) with roasted garlic and chicken and like 3 different cheeses
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Actually have a good relationship
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	... well thats not really a phrase so i guess OMG
Thoughts First Waking Up:	im lonely :(
Your Best Physical Feature:	my eyes...or my boobs!
Your Bedtime:	whenever i fall asleep...usually around 11:30 or midnight
Your Most Missed Memory:	ISRAEL! but dont worry...i'll be back!
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonalds...esp the one's in israel
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton...?
Chocolate or Vanilla:	depends what mood im in....
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	um not really...hookah occasionaly
Do you Swear:	fuck yes
Do you Sing:	only when nobody is listening
Do you Shower Daily:	mm hmm
Have you Been in Love:	i dont know...maybe...i've been in love with the idea of a person..make sense?.. might be now i dont know
Do you want to go to College:	yea
Do you want to get Married:	yeah
Do you belive in yourself:	most of the time
Do you get Motion Sickness:	only when im in the back of a jeep offroading
Do you think you are Attractive:	yeah i like to think i am
Are you a Health Freak:	nah
Do you get along with your Parents:	most of the time
Do you like Thunderstorms:	sometimes...only if im not alone
Do you play an Instrument:	no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	umm
In the past month have you Smoked:	umm
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no :(
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	mmhmm
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nope havent even had one
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	never
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	yeah...my sport of choice
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	never
Ever been Drunk:	yea
Ever been called a Tease:	um i dont think so
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	painlessly
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	happy, healthy, and not lonely
What country would you most like to Visit:	i wanna go back to ISRAEL
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	blue or green...or a really pretty shade of brown
Favourite Hair Color:	anything but red
Short or Long Hair:	um either...it just has to look good
Height:	5'8 or taller
Weight:	idk
Best Clothing Style:	not punk or goth...i like guys that dress nice
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	idk...
Number of Piercings:	2 in each ear
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	no regrets...
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

taken from shira

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 01:21:54 GMT

Based on the lj interests lists of those who share my more unusual interests, the interests suggestion meme thinks I might be interested in
1. nfty-sar score: 6
2. rick recht score: 6
3. dan nichols score: 6
4. camp coleman score: 6
5. kutz score: 5
6. regbo score: 4
7. uahc score: 4
8. tikun olam score: 3
9. sefty score: 3
10. israelis score: 3
11. nfty-str score: 3
12. torah score: 3
13. alpharetta score: 2
14. song sessions score: 2
15. the electronic castros score: 2
16. greene score: 2
17. dan bern score: 2
18. shabbat score: 2
19. yidcore score: 2
20. jewishness score: 2

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Tue, 12 Jul 2005 19:07:15 GMT

So right now i feel super lonely...i need more friends...i feel like such a loser sitting at home and going thru israel pictures...what's a girl to do...yeah and i miss my 4 hour conversations with Eedan...too bad he's in israel

moses the duck...i like it

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 21:28:46 GMT

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 17:31:12 GMT

back from israel....amazing and a half...more on it later

ps iraeli guys do it best

stolen from shira

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 20:02:16 GMT

The University of Blogging

Presents to
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An Honorary
Bachelor of
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Majoring in
Cheesey Memes

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pictures from photo...kinda old but fun!

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 19:32:43 GMT

**photo credits to my beloved rachel!**

Rachel enjoying her donut

Michelle enjoying her oreos

me being fat....i think my hair looks shiny..

me loving the donuts

Devin with her chips

Bry looking cute with the chip

Bry enjoying her oreo

annie trying to be fat..

PS im leaving for israel in 2 days!!!

Tue, 31 May 2005 21:56:35 GMT

so i've decided that i need friends...be one!

freaked..

Thu, 26 May 2005 02:11:25 GMT

so i just realized that i have no idea what i want to do in life...its like im just spiraling forward into infinity (does that make sense?) so like i was talking to peter (who i'm madly in love with and he knows it cuz i tell him all the time)and we're talking about the army...and he's known thats what hes wanted to do since he was ity bity...and im like where the fuck am i gonna end up...? more on this later...kisses

things that need to be said..

Sat, 21 May 2005 00:23:11 GMT

Dear Adam,
I just want you to know that for the past 3 days i've been thinking and praying about you non-stop...I am so worried about you..Do you remember what you wrote in my yearbook? well i do..i'm so glad we became friends...and i can't wait til i can get to know you better when you get out of the hospital...but that's not the most potent...you also said something about enjoying highschool while i can...weird huh? did something tell you that something would happen? or was it just conincidence? well i just want you to know that you're one of the strongest people i know and i know you can get through this...just hang in there..Adam, everyone is really worried about you..especially first period spanish...it's not the same with out you..just hang in there bud...we're all praying for you
love
gabi

thats what i've been needing to say

Wed, 18 May 2005 22:28:06 GMT

what does gabi do when things get bad...? do REALLY stupid things to forget about it...
guess what kids...it doesnt work

Wed, 18 May 2005 20:16:52 GMT

so i didn't get elected RCVP...major bummer....im pretty much crushed...but now it's all been put in perspective because i found out that one of my friends had a brain annuerism (sp?) last night and he's now in critical condition...of course im worried about him...but what really upsets me is that he was fine yesterday...one day you're here and ok...and then poof something happens and you're not ok...and a blood vessel bursts in your head...and the you're in critical condtition...and you dont know if you're gonna live or die...and it could happen to me (GOD FORBID)!!! i dont know...im pretty much a mess right now
over and out (but not for too long)

Thu, 12 May 2005 00:14:12 GMT

some people are just doo doo heads

Sun, 01 May 2005 00:42:54 GMT

boy comes over
boy and girl hook up
boy trys to have sex
girl says no
girl is uncomfortable
boy and girl are still hooking up
girl is still uncomfortable
someone knocks on the door
some guy is like is ((boy)) here?
and boy leaves
girl feels like crying

highlight of my life!

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 23:34:26 GMT

our illegal game of lap tag on the moonwalk...its pretty much the coolest thing ever...just thought youd want to know

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 01:35:07 GMT

i guess you can say things are lacking in the boy department...kinda...well yeah...hopefully mexico will bring some changes

me explaining my dream and other things...

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 02:06:40 GMT

BrwnEyedGrl31905: i think im gonna just like kiss him
BrwnEyedGrl31905: would that be skanky?
hawaiibri08: no
hawaiibri08: of course not
BrwnEyedGrl31905: haha he was in my dream
BrwnEyedGrl31905: and i was like dude what are you doing in my dream?
hawaiibri08: lol
BrwnEyedGrl31905: and hes like um maybe cuz you like me
BrwnEyedGrl31905: and i was like oh yea
hawaiibri08: awww
hawaiibri08: haha
BrwnEyedGrl31905: and then i was like dude...lets make out
BrwnEyedGrl31905: and he was like ok
BrwnEyedGrl31905: and then i woke up :-(

i looked at her picture...and broke down

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 01:02:35 GMT

so my grandmas dying...i cant stop crying...i cant even look at her picture...i dont know what to do

for those who arent coming to my party

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 03:34:07 GMT

ooh ahh
do i look A stoned...B...naked....or C all of the aboce
oh yes...shawna...go change now...i know you need to :)
naked?i think not
and pouty

to all-go change now...i know you need to

yes i love you all and no i cant go to battle of the bands...its a tragedy

pathetic

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 02:56:28 GMT

and shawna sums it all up xFallenxAngel22x: its wut he didnt do and didnt say thats the problem isnt it

so starting from after school...i'm all excited....go to the Y feel good...get ready ((((Find out i most likely cant go to battle of the bands)))) go to the mall at what 6....HE said he was gonna be there at 630....isnt there....get bacon and onion rings....call him...hes coming...pretzel place burns....see him..get happy....dont talk....get sad....go cry in bathroom...get over it....pout....the end

wanna hear a secret?

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 01:50:31 GMT

sometimes when i look at the moon
i hold my own
and wish it was you

wow im in an artsy kinda mood...see what guys do to me?

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 23:11:03 GMT

i passed you in the hall today
for a second everything was right
but then i got jolted back to the real world
you don't even notice me